Sunday, July 12, 2015

A Tribute To My First Mini-Relationship

As it turns out, This Dater went from dating to a full-blown relationship pretty quickly.  This Guy and I ended up spending more and more time together, had the “are we exclusive??” talk, left a toothbrush at each other’s apartment, and even spent a weekend away together.  There were so many wonderful things about This Guy and I learned a lot about what a relationship can be like.  In the end, This Guy felt better as a friend than a boyfriend, so that was that. 

A few lessons learned:

Nice guys do exist.  Nice guys give compliments genuinely, not just because they want to get into your pants.  And the best kind of compliments are about who you are as a person, rather than what you look like or what you are wearing.

Being honest with your feelings is pretty cool.  There were several times with This Guy where something didn’t sit right with me and I said it out loud to him, instead of holding onto it or complaining about it to one of my friends (truth, so there was still some complaining to the friends - progress, not perfection!).

Expressing your feelings doesn’t mean you always get what you want.  Sometimes it went like this - - Me: “Hey This Guy, it bugs me when you do blah.”  This Guy: “Oh ok, I’m sorry that bugs you, but I’m probably going to keep doing blah.”  Relationships are about deciding what blahs you can live with, and what blahs are deal-breakers. 

Breaking up with someone is hard.  Deciding to end things with This Guy was difficult, and actually ending things took longer than it probably should have.  He was my first taste of really nice and really into me, and part of saying goodbye was dealing with the fear of “what if I never find someone like This Guy again.” 

The only person who can validate you is you.  Within five seconds of ending things with This Guy I had called, emailed, or texted three people for support.  “Tell me I’m not a bad person.” “Tell me I did the right thing.” “Tell me I won’t be single forever.”  Even though my support people said the right supportive things, I had to come to grips with the fact that I did what was best for me, and there ain’t no shame in that game.    

So what’s next for This Dater?  More dating!  I learned so much during my mini-relationship with This Guy, not just about what I want and don’t want in a future partner, but also about areas I still need to work on.  I’m excited to get back out there again and continue learning and living This Dater's Life.  


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